On May 25th, I’ll officially be twenty years old, and for the past few years that I’ve been living, I’ve been over-analyzing many experiences that I’ve lived through. I’ve finally experienced what a heartbreak feels like, from broken relationships, to losing a loved one. I’ve understand that money could buy you many things, but it can’t buy you happiness. Shit who am I kidding? Anything that will take care of the bills I have to pay, that will satisfy the hell out of me (wow I’m so bad, and I don’t have to pay as many bills as other people do)! Iv’e acknowledged the fact that everything from this point on is only going to become more difficult, but I’m okay with that. I’m okay with challenges here and there because I’ve learned that I could do anything I put my mind to, and I’m currently in the process of executing my plans in order to become successful. Here’s to 20 years of feeling loved, feeling lost, and feeling the urge to always dance. I’ve learned that right now I’m not where I want to be, but I am trusting the process to get to where I need to be.
I’ve had many questions floating around in my mind lately…
- When will I get married?
- Will I get married in my 20’s?
- Will I be well known for my dancing ?
- Will I have my own family once I get everything together?
- Though I am still indecisive, what will my career be?
- Will my anxiety go away?
- Will I reach a peak of complete happiness?
- Am I actually happy with where I’m at right now?
- If I’m not happy now, what could I do to change that?
- Most importantly, what’s my purpose?
I feel like once I know the answer to these questions, I will truly be content with everything, but finding out the answers to these questions won’t be easy. As a young adult turning twenty, I understand that I have not seen it all yet. I do agree that these twenty years have flown by quickly, I understand that I have much more time to now explore the world, scratch some things off of my bucket list, and to love endlessly. My main priority is making my family proud, especially my grandfather. I know that he’ll be looking down on me as I walk across the graduation stages to receive my associates degree, then my bachelors degree, and then hopefully my masters degree. I don’t have intentions of getting trashed next year as soon as I turn 21. I do however want to go clubbing just to showcase my passion for dancing. I’m hoping to be over this anxiety stage by then, so I could just appreciate my surroundings rather than being afraid of them. I feel excited about turning 20 because this could be a major turning point in my life. I would like for my passions to take me to places that I have never been to before. I would like to take more dance classes in California, or write about visiting a famous Broadway show in New York. Eventually, I would love to become an author publishing books about the importance of the Urban Arts, and I might share some personal experiences from my life as well. I would like to be remembered for giving back to my community in some way also. I’m excited to start my journey as a twenty year old young lady. One thing that I know for a fact is that my childhood and teenage years will always be apart of me, and I will always love and cherish the people who were apart of those unforgettable memories of mine. So here’s to new beginnings.